Jan 6

Woke up early, got my hair did.

On my way back met up with Fadeaway. As I was waiting for him to arrive I went to a McD's for food. The cashier next to mine yelled, "hey I know you! I'm mcd chick!" it turns out I had picked her up a few nights ago while she was walking her dog. She told me she had changed her number, so I told her she should give me her new one. Asked her what she was up to tonight, agreed to pick her up after work.

Hung out with Fadeaway. This guy approaches everything, haha. I was tired from waking up early so I was completely out of state, but it was nice seeing him have so much energy.

Hgh fived a chick, who turned to me and started chatting me up. Got her number, set up a date, bounced her to Fadeaway's friend's place, but it was too much for her too soon, so she left. Nonetheless my new presence is working.

Went back to pick up mcd chick. Walked her back to her place, told her she had to change into something cute. Grabbed her ass, which she vocally (but not physically) reprimanded me about. She asked me if I had weed, I hinted I might, but she has to buy me cigarettes for it. Afterward she said she wanted to go back to my place, which was way too soon. This meant she either wanted me really badly, or as I later found out, she wanted weed really badly. I slowed her down, we went to the bar next to my place for food first.

Body language sitting next to each other in a booth is weird, because the back is too high for me to grab her neck easily and when she turns her body toward me her body is also further away so I have to awkwardly reach to touch her thighs, back, etc. I mirror her body language throughout the night, we hold hands. It's weird but she doesn't squeeze my hand even as we're holding hands, but I've since conditioned myself to read that as a green light.

I bring her back to my place, introduce her to my roommate and her friends, tell her to take off her boots. One of my roommate's friends still had her shoes on and asked me if she had to take off hers as well, I told her no, only mcd girl had to because she's my guest. I bring mcd girl to my room and put on some music.

Mcd girl gets on my bed but the moment I get on it she stands up and asks for the weed. I work her a little but I decide it's time to smoke with her. I get the cigarettes that she bought, trade some weed for it, and go back to the room. Neither one of us knows how to roll. She immediately gets up and goes to the girl in the next room to ask her to roll us some joints. This was the first time she took the lead all night, and it really showed her true motivations.

We smoked in the room next to mine with the girl who rolled our joints. The two chicks were getting along and I was left out of the conversation like a chump. Weed totally dries up my conversational repertoire.

We finish and I take mcd girl back to my room and start escalating. We kiss for a few seconds, then she pushes me away and asks what I'm doing, and says that I'm bad. I agree and continue. She pushes me away and walks to the living room where everybody else was and starts chatting up everyone. I have absolutely nothing to add to the conversation, I am completely stoned. After a few long minutes I just walk back into my room. Surprisingly mcd girl follows.

She asks me where my other joint is. I make her work for it a little. I start massaging her, taking off her clothes. I get one layer off but she won't let me take off any more. She's reacting well to physical dominance: massaging her, choking, holding her hands above here head while pinning her down and kissing her neck. Each time she breaks out of her trance and says we should smoke or go outside and watch the movie. Eventually we share the second joint. My logic was, maybe once she gets high she'll want to fuck. How wrong I was.

As she was smoking she straddled me and was touchy. But the moment the joint was done, so was she. She immediately started packing her shit. That was an extremely enlightening moment. I walked her back to her place, tried to escalate, but she had to walk her dog. I walked her dog with her, went to the Subways with her for her to get a sandwich, walked her back again. I knew it was super chumpy behavior but logistically I could only fuck her in her place, and I was too stoned to have good game. Once back at her place she tried to stop me at her door, but I said I needed to pee. She said ok but i had to leave immediately after. I went in, peed, tried to escalate, she wasn't down. I was tired of this shit so I went home.

I was really surprised by this chick. She seemed really sweet until she got high. She was all into volunteering and helping the homeless and AIDS shelters. Then she got high and turned. I'm not sure I want to see her again, unless she's sober and she's definitely not coming back to my pad.

Lots of lessons learned:
- don't give druggy chicks drugs, give them cock!
- if a druggy chick wants to go home with you really quickly, she probably wants drugs. Even if she wants you, it pays to work her slower.
- withhold drugs, just leave open the possibility while physically dominating the chick. She'll let you do whatever you want as long as there's the possibility of drugs, meanwhile you get them hot and heavy and eventually the biological needs take over.
- watch your shit. This chick was fascinated by everything I owned. I made sure she didn't swipe anything while she was here. Meanwhile she paid for "my" weed. I even scored a pair of sunglasses from her place, which she begrudgedly gave me.